June 11-13: Spend the weekend with my bff (and BM) Claire doing things for her upcoming wedding.
June 13: Fly out to Mountain View, CA for Google training.
June 14-18: Google training; did the best out of our 17 person training group (pretty proud of myself for that one); thought I would have a ton of time to catch up on blogging but met awesome people and hung out with them every night after training.
June 19: Fly back to DC
June 20: Catch up on sleep
June 21: Begin first week out in the field; photograph businesses; pitch other businesses this awesome service; deal with some of the rudest individuals I've ever encountered; sweat my mother-effing balls off in the DC heat; hardly have any time to spend with my husband let alone live a normal life.
June 24: Have a mild job-induced meltdown; unsure if I can keep this up for 6 months; have Josh take a pic of me all dressed up in my Google polo and gear:
Laugh it up
June 25: Survived my first week! (barely)
Weekend: Amazing and intoxicating! (literally)
June 28: Week two! I can do this!
June 30: Have a major job-induced meltdown; can't stop crying; work for 2 hours then take the rest of the day off; decide I definitely cannot do this for 6 months; send in my "I quit" email (resignation sounds too formal); feel immediate sense of relief coupled with intense sense of failure.
4 day holiday weekend: Much needed, much enjoyed.
So, I quit the job with Google. Believe me when I say I did NOT want to do that. I'm not a quitter. But at the same time, I was incredibly unhappy and it was starting to affect my marriage and my sanity. Every night I would come home exhausted, cranky, and a gross sweaty mess. Then I'd have to do more work to prepare for the next day. It would be one thing if I was making a ton of money or enjoyed what I did...but neither of those things were the case.
After this week (I agreed to work 3 days this week) I'll be back on the job hunt. I need a real job. I need a real job doing what I really want to do.
In between job hunting I'm hoping to catch up on blogging, start those damn recaps, figure out what direction to take this blog, enjoy my new city, enjoy my husband, put my apartment together (I've been here for over a month and it's still a mess), and basically start my life as a married woman in a new city.
Thanks for sticking around. I definitely miss my readers, writing, comments (they're like crack, ya know), reading other blogs, etc. I promise not to be so MIA from now on. And I promise my next post will channel Kelly Killoren Bensimon and be full of rainbows and unicorns :)
Sounds like a super intense period! Hopefully things will calm down for you this week. I've been pretty absent since the move too and can totally understand your desire to get things in the house sorted finally. Can't wait for your recaps!
ReplyDeleteGood for you for doing what makes you happy! I missed you! I know you'll find a job that's perfect for you and won't make you dread going everyday (I'm telling myself the same thing - positive thinking!) SO excited for your recaps, lady!
ReplyDeleteGlad you're back...hope you find something you like soon!
ReplyDeleteI had no idea! I'm sorry it ended up sucking donkey balls but hey, you met some cool peeps in Cali (NOT including myself) because of it! Something will come along... and I won't lie... I'm glad I have some Em time back in the blogosphere and twitterville.
ReplyDeleteI'm not a quitter either, but sometimes you have to do what is best for your sanity and your marriage :) Good luck with your job search! *fingers crossed for you*
ReplyDeleteOkay had to come back to view the pic, love it! :)
ReplyDeleteOh honey bless you....it doesn't make you a quitter it makes you smart. Because I'm miserable at my job and I know I should be planning wedding and doing graphic design for a living and I'm working on that and as soon as that starts making me money, I'm out of here, LOL! Sanity comes first then marriage and so on, without your sanity the other things in your life will not work!
ReplyDeleteWelcome back! Good luck with the job hunt...it sounds like you made the right choice. I hope you find something you love!
ReplyDeleteGlad you're back and I am so proud that you decided to do something healthy and put yourself and your family first! You are so awesome that I know you'll be able to find a great job that will fit you and make you happy!
ReplyDeleteGlad that you're back! I love your updates! No job is worth the cost of your marriage! Sounds like you made the right choice! I'm sure you'll find something that fits you perfectly!
ReplyDeleteWhoah, sounds intense! I just read something interesting on quitting: "It can be incredibly empowering. It can also be incredibly brave, because it forces you to face your failures." I know you didn't want to give up, but it sounds like you made the right choice for your family and now you have a lot more information about what you need in a job!
ReplyDeleteThanks for all of the lovely comments, you guys. I was really scared to write this post for fear that it would sound that I was making excuses or whining. So all of the supportive comments are really helping me confirm that this was the right decision. You guys are the best!!
ReplyDeleteHappy to hear from you! Sorry the Google job didn't work out, but it sounds exhausting and stressful and I think you made the right decision. I have been in a job JUST like that and I remember how awesome it felt knowing I never had to do it again! Hang in there this week and I am sure you'll find something GREAT soon enough. Missed you face and glad you're back! :)
ReplyDeleteOh man...I figured life was chaotic and hectic for you since I had not seen/heard you around. So sorry that it didn't work out like you hoped. Total bummer...but still, glad you are back on track and were okay with realizing it wasn't working out. In the past, I was like you - I can't quit. But honestly, as I've grown up :) I've realized that certain things are just not worth it if they affect your health both physically and mentally.
ReplyDeleteI know something amazing will find it's way to you...just have faith and keep hard at the grind. So glad you are back.
Btw, stupid Blogger is all jacked up with the comments today. Not sure if anyone else is noticing this but I tried to publish several comments you left me and they won't shup on my blog :( All my posts show the wrong number of comments...and comments that used to be there are now gone ??? Hopefully it works out soon.
Wow you have been super busy!
ReplyDeleteYou def did the best thing; no point staying at something that wasnt going to be permanent anyway, your well being is way more important!
Wow, you've been on a roller coaster my friend! Def sounds like Google was not meant to be...I bet something wonderful is waiting just around the corner!
ReplyDeleteGood for you for realizing that your sanity and the life you have going on right now is too important to put at risk when you are crazily overworked. Hope you find something you love soon! Cute pic, by the way!
ReplyDeleteOh girl, you are definitely not a failure for quitting! I know allll about it ;). When I resigned from my PhD program last year, I kind of thought that I was the dumbest person ever, and really thought that I was a failure (sheesh, I was smart enough to get into the program...why the heck wasn't I smart enough to actually DO it?). However, I firmly believe that your personal relationships (aka your marriage) and your sanity are more important than your job. It really isn't worth it to go through life being miserable, and I just kept reminding myself of that. Now, I'm much happier (albeit poorer) and hoping to find something great that I will look forward to doing each day! I know you'll find it too... :)
ReplyDeleteOut of curiosity, were you doing this...?
ReplyDeletehttp://www.geek.com/articles/news/google-starts-taking-photographs-in-store-for-google-places-20100422/
GOOD FOR YOUUUU! You have to do what makes you happy, being unhappy and taking that home is not healthy. Really happy that you made a good personal decision for yourself.
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